It has been written before by one wiser than me, but has not evidently been read......:

"To get through this life and see it realistically poses a problem. There is a dark, evil,..hopeless side to life..that includes suffering, death,.. and ultimate oblivion as our earth falls into a dying sun. Nothing really matters. "

"On the other hand,...the best side of our humanity finds us determined to make our lives (sic)...as meaningful as possible NOW;..to defy fate. "

Everything matters. Everything.

"It is easy to become immobilized between these two points of view--to see them both so clearly that one cannot decide what to do or where to be!!
What gives us release from this delima,..is that we, as human beings, are the only creatures in the universe,..who can see how things ARE,...and how THINGS COULD BE!!"

As for me,..I cannot change the things that have already happened. I can affect the results of what has happened...with my opinions and my actions...comfort the folks,..who lost a son in the "tomato lobing" incident in Mt. Hope. And I can affect the future with my own actions.

Right now,..I am busy sitting and waiting. Rosa Parks was busy sitting and waiting..on her bus. Bhudda was busy sitting and waiting under a tree. Jesus sat in a garden and waited. Gandhi sat in a public square and waited!! Mohammed sat and waited in a cave!! I am following an honerable tradition of people, who sat and waited. All of us sitters and waiters have something in common. We were and are waiting on something that we know is going to happen. What could it be?

Opinions won't change what is going to happen. Arguments won't change what is going to happen. Criticisms won't change what is going to happen. A while back,..I got up off my ass,..got tired of some stupid scolds,..and got busy...and ...now I have earned the right to sit and wait and see what the results of my actions are going to be.

I do have a small piece of satisfaction in some of the changes that will take place because of what I have done. No one was hurt by what I have done. No one was made to feel bad by what I have done. I did not have to take advantage of someone else..to make myself feel powerful or important because of what I have done. And if all goes well,..some other folks lives..will be made quite a bit...better!!