Today,..I had a hard time breathing again....and we just saw the cardiologist..FRIDAY!!!! He is not sure if the left side of my heart is getting enough oxygen;...sweeet! This must mean part of my brain is not getting enough oxygen!!

Just what I always wanted!! This must be where my wacky sense of humor comes from,...the gift for story-telling and all! All my stories and ad-libs are the product of an oxygen starved brain!

I joked about it with Lloyd in the car on the way home. Daaaaamn! It's getting hard to make that man laugh!! Can't he understand that I want him with me in spirit for ALL of the moments of my life,..however long or short it is??

Can't he see that humor is my way of facing the truth? And that laughter makes truth into a victory and not a defeat?

This man was one of the few people...who believed me...when I said that in reality that Nellie was not as blind or deaf as the people,..who surrounded her when she was locked up for all those years!! That is why I married him!! And he is going to let a piece of news like this get him down?

Oh,..Lloyd,..life is more than what you see..or hear!!